Current Aches and Pains

I don't know if it's because of the holiday season or because I'm finishing the last week of my 23rd year, but things related to child bearing are currently painful. Unfortunately, it is incredibly painful to attend church because of the circumstances. I have almost left early on several Sundays because I couldn't take another comment starting with, "When I was pregnant..." or "Motherhood has just been the greatest joy of my whole life." I know it is wrong for me to let these comments affect me this way. And I know these sweet women have absolutely no idea that it digs at my heart. But it does and it's hard.

I don't have any particular resolution for these thoughts but I think it's important for me to share them. I don't know why it's taking us longer to get pregnant, but it is and it's all painful. This subject is very close to my heart and I'm not looking for anyone to join a pity party with me. I am taking off comments from this post because I'd prefer to just end it here.

These pictures were taken a few weeks ago of my sweet friend's baby boy.

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