10.23.2013

Being Brave (Being Scared)

I have been waging an internal battle the last few months with what I am going to do here. Prayers have gone up as I've looked at available jobs in the area. The longer I looked, the more nothing felt right. Last week I had the thought, "Why aren't you using the talents you have been given?"

I often get asked why I haven't honestly tried to make a job out of my photography. And why I don't often share photos of the clients I actually do take. It's only been within the last few days that I've admit to myself that it is fear. Taking photos is a big part of my life and it's also very personal. Putting my work out with the chance of rejection is terrifying. Also, what if no one wants to hire me? That is even more terrifying and embarrassing. I have enough self-awareness to know that I have a lot to learn and a lot of growing to do as far as my art goes. But fear has kept me from that growth. 

I'm letting myself use my talents. It's exciting and horrifying and thrilling and gut-wrenching. I have already had a lot of doors opened and events booked just in the last week. There is still a long way to go but I am feeling very blessed. God is good. And here I go...

I set up an online portfolio that I will update with new images hopefully frequently. If you live in Colorado or Utah and are looking for a photographer, you can find everything there: Bri Lamkin Photography

24 comments:

  1. reading this i felt like i could relate to what you're going through. It can be really hard to be confident in your abilities (i've found this is especially true for those in a creative field). It is scary at first but if there is one thing I've realized lately it is that you have to have faith in yourself and in your talents. There is no doubt how talented you are as a photographer, it is what originally what made me begin reading your blog. I guess all I wanted to say to you is that there are so many people (readers and others) that believe in you. Your photography is so beautiful. It is obvious you are very gifted and I'm glad you found the courage to realize this goal. So congratulations on setting up your portfolio (which is breath-taking by the way). Getting your feet wet is often the hardest part.

    Reagan
    http://hellonvmbr.blogspot.com/

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  2. Wow, your photos truly are incredible. I love love love that photo of the young girl with the sunflower... I feel like it really captures the complexity of an individual, even if they are young. God IS good, and I can't wait to see how he continues to give you courage throughout your sharing!

    Lyric
    lyricalbits.blogspot.com

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  3. Man I have been pondering the same thing. I love taking photos, and it would be neat to have it as a side job bringing me to share special moments with fellow members of my community....

    It is all about taking the plunge.

    I love your site's layout it looks great. Congratulations, sister!

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  4. So proud and happy for you! It's a big/small step in the right direction, or at least a direction? Anyways, I'm sure you'll be brilliant at whatever you try!

    P.S. I've been following your blog for a while now but I've always been too shy to comment - guess it's time to be brave!

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  5. If I lived anywhere near you, I'd 110% hire you. I've been reading your blog for awhile now and I've always thought your photos were breathtakingly beautiful. You'll do amazing in the business. The very best of luck to you! :)

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  6. I feel the same way. I'm not as good as you, but, I do know how you feel. I can't even take credit to put my name on a blog when I designed it because I'm afraid if someone sees it they'll hate me because they hate the design. That's just too much pressure.

    If anyone should be brave enough to venture into a photography business, it's you. Honest to goodness if I could actually hire a photographer (instead of just trading work) then I would call you in a heartbeat.

    God knows what's best for us, for you, and if this isn't the right path you'll know right away or at least learn some cool stuff until you figure out it's wrong. You are awesome & I just love ya.

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  7. I can relate to this too. I want to be a photographer, but it is scary showing your pictures with people, and the fear of getting rejected is a big one. You are really talented though, and I know if you follow your dreams, you will be so happy!!

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  8. you shouldn't be afraid, if you don't show your work, people would never know what they're missing, you are awesome

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  9. Do not doubt yourself! You are truly talented. Follow your heart. I personally think your blog is wonderful, and I think your photography is absolutely beautiful! Good things to come for you! Bessings!
    A follower in TX.

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  10. i'm so happy for you. this is what you were made to do!

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  11. You are so talented, and I simply love your style. You inspire me, and I completely understand your fears. Good luck with everything! I wish I lived in Colorado so I could hire you!

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  12. you are so talented, and have such an incredible eye for photography. seriously you are one of my biggest inspirations! so be brave, and I know wonderful things will follow :)

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  13. good for you. your photos really are so wonderful, and i totally understand being afraid to use your talents. i wish you all the luck in getting your new photography business off the ground. xxo

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  14. GOOD FOR YOU.
    really, i'm excited for you to start this journey into the unknown. I have a feeling it's going to be a pretty successful journey...

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  15. you are amazing. you are so talented, which you already know, and fear is always the hardest barrier to beat. i'm currently in a similar situation, just moved to a new city and just graduated from college, and i've yet to find my direction. its a struggle for me to put myself out there, but i'll get there.

    i'm excited that you have put yourself out there, and i am really excited to look through your work.

    K

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  16. Congratulations!! I love that you were so open about your internal struggle. You should read this post by this photographer Courtney http://lovecourtxoxo.com/2013/10/16/calm-eyes-calm-mind/ - she talks about the same struggles. I go through the same thoughts and worries, I can totally relate!!

    Tara Victoria (www.taravictoria.com)

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  17. I am so happy for you! Your photography is great! Will you please stick around for another six years so I can have you do my wedding photos?

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  18. I think it's wonderful that you're trying to pursue photography and share it with the world-- don't be nervous! Rejection is a natural part of life, but so is success. And you will be extremely successful! You're so talented!

    Xo, Hannah

    sweetsweetnoir.net

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  19. I feel like this is the exact opposite for me: I started my own photography business and was super excited and motivated! And confident! And then as I tried to put myself out there, I realized that it was REALLY hard to advertise. No one replied to my craigslist posts and no one redeemed my online coupons. This past summer was very frustrating. So to kick off I decided to give away a few free photo shoots, and that did the trick (for now). Word of mouth is MUCH more effective than any other form of advertisement (in my experience, anyway). Good luck with your upcoming sessions. I've always adored your photo, and I'n sure that others in your area will too.

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  20. I completely understand how you're feeling. Just doing photography for family and friends is intimating sometimes. I always get nervous when my friends recommend me to their friends because I'm not "professional" and I feel like I'll fall short of their expectations. Thankfully photography is just a pure hobby to me, one that I love and more than enjoy and it's so fun to make extra money on the side! Wooh!

    I'm so excited for you and your new career! I have a friend who is going through the exact same situation. She is BEYOND talented and I'm excited for her too! She has shared with me how nerving it is, but it's something that is so worth it. You should her out! She is definitely a kindred spirit of mine! (Katie Wilson of katieshanice.blogspot.com )

    Wishing you the best of luck sweet dear!
    Xo, Emma

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  21. you have such a gift... you will do amazing things! trust in God, His plan is perfect!
    xx

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  22. Man this is so great Bri. I kind of feel bad, maybe even fearful, that I'm feeling entitled when I can come up with nothing but dread at the thought of finding a "real" job. Even when what I love to do gives me burn out and doesn't pay the bills and has slow seasons. I'm actively trying to find something to supplement my freelance and I'm really struggling with 'am I just being a baby?" or "will another job just distract me from what I'm supposed to be doing?"

    I want to get married soon and I want for us to be able to support ourselves without help from parents. It's really hard to know which direction to go in. And I don't have an undergrad degree to help me find a real job, meaning no one wants to hire me as a graphic designer or creative director or anything that would be fun and in my field.

    All of that was to say, this was an encouragement. Thanks for sharing and I'm super excited for you. Without really even knowing you I still feel like photography makes sense for you. I think that's probably one of the top things that most people who visit your blog associate you with. Anyway, good luck! Going to check out your portfolio now!

    Best,
    Melanie

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