10.10.2012

Better Days

My bangs are at an awkward length. They’re at that length where they’re too long for some things and too short for others. I can’t decide if I should cut them or grow them out. Of course instead of making a decision I just mess with them repeatedly everywhere I go. 
For the last two (ish) years, life has been a lot like having bangs at this awkward length. If the last two years of our lives took human form, it would definitely be a thirteen-year-old girl with braces, acne, and a training bra. The truth is I have handled this time with anything but grace. It has been a really difficult transition. Decisions that will affect our family forever have been floating in the air as we try to find the right answers for them. Part of me has been trying to make the best of living in a new area while the other part is trying not to get too attached incase we leave. The truth is the last two years have worn me down to the point where I expect the worst in most situations. I feel like if I want something to work out, that means it wont. I’ve become this cynical version of myself with little hope in the future. Then the other day I stumbled upon this quote, “The future is as bright as your faith” –Pres. Thomas S. Monson. With just a few short words, I had my negative outlook in all it's clarity placed nicely on my shoulders. It's me. I can make myself miserable by complaining about our circumstances or I can rejoice in trials and have faith in God. Since the first one hasn't worked out so well for me, I'm going to try the latter.   

15 comments:

  1. I can totally relate to your feelings, as our little family unit has had its fair share of trials in the last 18+ months. And similar to you I had this moment of clarity a couple months back and now things seem less tragic, and easier to handle. Good luck pretty lady!

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  2. With you on this one. The last two years have been.. trying. But I keep going back to the same idea, that we're protected and guided and loved. Those things right there are enough to defeat self-doubt/fears/anxiety/etc. And, you've got all of us, too! Cheering you on and believing :)

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  3. I finally decided to grow out my bangs because i hate that "awkward length". I LOVE your bangs though! You have the best hair!
    jennybodell.blogspot.com

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  4. Great analogy and I love that quote. P.S. I'm also trying to grow my bangs out and its so frustrating! I'm usually so impatient with them that I end up just cutting them again. But this time, I'm doing it! I'm growing them all the way out!!

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  5. Keep your head up. You have the power to make whatever situation positive or not. Things are never perfect. You just need to focus on the little ounce of good.

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  6. Love that quote! Sometimes we all need a little perspective adjustment. The times we remember best are the ones we made work ourselves rather than falling perfectly into place.

    Also, I'm feeling you on the bangs right now. I look like that right picture all of the time these days.

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  7. this was really touching, bri. i think this is exactly what i needed to read today. and what a perfect analogy -- it sits so perfectly with me these days too, but i could never boil it down with such concise, perfect brevity. you really have a gift for explaining things in the best possible way -- one of the many reasons i'm sure you'll make a great mother someday. that's a really wonderful quote from Thomas S. Monson -- i really, really enjoyed watching general conference this last weekend (thanks to robbie's family & blog friends like you) and so much of it was spot-on for me -- just the words i needed to be lifted, comforted, encouraged.

    p.s. everything else aside, you look so beautiful in both photographs.

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  8. If you'd like a fellow military wife to talk to, I'm definitely here. Feel free to email me anytime!!

    I know the feeling of everything beginning to weigh down on you with all the changes, and different things that come with it. I'm in the 'should I go to college now, if we may leave' kinda stage. I hope you find something that helps you, again -- always here to talk!

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  9. Right there with you girl! Needing to apply President Monson's quote to my life asap!
    xo TJ

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  10. I found your blog through instagram (via christie dupree). Is that weird to say? I don't know. Anyway, I got excited when I saw you post about watching conference! Anyways, I like your blog and cute outfit posts :)

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  11. You and me both sister! I'm trying to always look at the brighter side each day but at the end I just take a deep breath and say, Dear God just give me the strength to go through today, usually works, I wake up in a better mood every day haha :)

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  12. Love the analogy. I totally dig it. Love your face. I totally dig you.

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  13. First of all, your bangs look so cute. I love them. I don't think they look awkward at all.
    Second, we have been trying to figure out "everything" too and it's confusing and hard a lot of the time too. Navigating life when you're young can be really intimidating. I love the quote by the Prophet though, and it's so true. Things always seem to work out- probably different and way BETTER than you ever expected.

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  14. 2 minutes ago I prayed aloud, "God, OK. I trust you again, I am sorry.I trust you with ALL of it." Right before I had caught this scripture in my reading, "If we are faithful to the end, trusting God just as firmly as when we first believed, we will share in all that belongs to Christ. Hebrews 3:14 (And then I got on the computer right after? Yes, maybe not the best idea...) But this is the first thing I read. I had found your blog this morning and had to walk away to do some stuff for a bit, so I left it on the screen. Thanks :) I am also from the Houston area by the way :)

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