5.03.2012

Making Music.



I have been hesitant to talk about this with, really, anyone. But it has been such a big part of my thoughts lately, I feel like it's time to share: I am making music. For some reason, this last month I have felt this overwhelming urge to create music. I cannot explain it. I have always loved music and I have missed singing in high school like nobody's business but it has always stopped there, at nostalgia. A fire has been lit inside me and there is no ignoring it anymore. I only started a little while ago but this experience has been so incredible. I don't know if I have ever felt so incompetent yet so empowered. Some days I feel like, "What am I doing? I can't do this." And other days I listen to the little voice memos on my phone that I record throughout the day whenever melodies or lyrics pop into my head and I think, "Where is this coming from? This is not coming from me." I know it sounds dumb but I honestly feel like I am being helped and blessed with inspiration in this whole process. I anticipate a lot more days of doubt and asking myself why I am doing this, but I feel like it needs to be done. So I'm taking a leap. Thanks to all the people that have hired me for blog designs, I was able to get all my equipment because of you.

14 comments:

  1. I think that's how you know it's right, you know? I feel that way about art sometimes and I can't help but think it's because it's what I'm supposed to be doing.

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  2. Ok, sorry to leave another comment. But seriously, we were given talents and passions for a reason. And I'm happy you feel the way you do.

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  3. I can't tell you how happy this post made me. You are amazing and I am so glad you've been having an incredible experience with this. I am so glad you are doing this. :)

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  4. Awesome photos!<3<3

    honey,
    www.honeyfullife.com

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  5. I admire the ability to make music so much because I definitely enjoy listening to beautiful music.

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  6. What a lovely share. I know EXACTLY how you feel. I used to record myself singing and think I sounded awful but I'm my worst critic! My Father's a musician so I picked up on vocals a very long time ago. I used to sing in junior high and high school but stopped performing after that. I thought I wanted to sing for a living at one point but I've seen first hand what the music industry can do to people. I didn't want to get caught up in that. Now I sing in the shower and in the car and sometimes when people ask I'll sing for them. I miss it all the time but just haven't had the urge like you make music. I truly hope you keep enjoying every second of music making. I can't wait to hear you some day!

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  7. Good for you. I did a ton of music stuff through school and university but have fallen away from it now that I work all the damn time. I should take a page from your book and get back into that.

    And yes, I'm a new reader of yours. Hiiiiiiii.

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  8. That's wonderful! Making music is one of my favorite things to do. It's like another world. I could spend hours just recording.

    Glad that you have a new found love :)

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  9. Funny. I wrote a similar post and then didn't publish it. I have like an archive of unpublished journal entry-ish posts and I talked about how I feel the same way. I haven't really been able to do anything about it, but I'm happy for you that you are!

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  10. um. thank goodness, because a while ago i was wandering on your tumblr and found myself listening to your voice recordings multiple times. they are beautiful! i hope you share what you come up with:):):)

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  11. Bri! this is so awesome, and makes me really happy. I think your voice is so beautiful and you have a lot of potential to make good music. It's really encouraging to see you going for something despite having some hesitation and feeling inadequate at times. I too feel this way all the time about making art, but once I make something, even if it's a small craft...I feel so at peace and want to kick myself in the head for getting so distracted, and for being so insecure about doing something I love so much. Anyway, I'm really excited for you.

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  12. I feel this way about writing a lot. I don't like to talk about it, or put it anywhere where anyone else might find it, but then every now and then, I just get sudden bursts of inspiration. I'll be stopping in the middle of something to scribble down a few sentences that just randomly appear in my head. Anyway, it's at these times that I know I should be writing. That I'm in a good place creatively, so maybe it's the same for you?

    Would love to hear some of your music sometime, and I'll definitely be swinging by the blog again when it pops up in my blog feed :P Rhi xx

    thewildestofdreams.blogspot.com

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  13. really really awesome bee, how inspiring to dive in like this, i think it's beautiful that you feel so challenged yet you are also experiencing it as a blessing when you see how you sound, ....what instruments are you playing?

    looking forward to following you on this journey!

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