April 10th

Today marks two years of marriage. A few weeks ago I was reading old journal entries and I came upon one I had written while Jordan and I were dating. It read: "I never thought I would still be scared and nervous about the future when I knew I had found 'the one'. But, really, it has only brought on a whole new set of fears and insecurities. Not only my own, but also his. It's scary taking on more than your own life." Marriage has brought this odd balance of security and vulnerability that I never imagined. The last two years have had the highest of highs and the lowest of lows in my life. I don't think I could say it any better than this: "Now that I’m married, the bads in my life hurt more and the goods are way better, and that’s just it. I’ve created a polarity" --Darren King from Mutemath. I can only imagine what it will be like as we stretch our hearts further when building our family together. But I wouldn't want anyone else by my side. I love you, Jordan. Happy Anniversary.